Blog Every Day in May {Letting Go}

  Today's topic could not be more apropos: React to this Term: Letting Go  

Someone told me these exact words the other night. I was lying in bed in complete tears and I texted them, half angry, half lonely, a whole lot of overwhelmed and they said you need to do what you told me to do and that's let go.

 

It hit me right there of all that those little word encompass. Its putting your total faith in the Lord that He will provide, He will heal, He will grant you grace and peace. Letting go is choosing to move on and not dwell on past decisions. Letting go is forgiving yourself and more importantly forgiving others.

 

Letting go doesn't mean you have to forget. Its mean you choose to give it up to Him. Letting go is freedom. Freedom for your heart, your soul, your mind.

 

These past months I have wrestled with this term: letting go. I have pondered it and tried desperately to let go. I think the reason I struggled so much with this is because I was trying to "let go" of the wrong things. I need to let go of the guilt I carry. I need to let go of the disappointment of the dreams I had of my life at 30. I need to let go of the fear of life on my own. I need to let go of the perfectionism I harbor inside myself and know that I am imperfect, but perfect in His eyes. I need to let go of the pain I feel for all my decisions and choices in life and know that He will restore what the locusts have eaten. (Joel 2:25).

 

Letting go means allowing yourself to be made whole again; to be filled with His love and joy; to see the light at the end of the tunnel; to live in the now; and allow yourself to love and be loved again.

She Let Go

Without a thought or a word, she let go.

She let go of fear.
She let go of judgments.
She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head.
She let go of the committee of indecision within her.
She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons.
Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.

She didn’t ask anyone for advice.
She didn’t read a book on how to let go.
She just let go.

She let go of all the memories that held her back.

She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward.
She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.
She didn’t promise to let go.
She didn’t journal about it.
She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer.
She made no public announcement.
She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.

She didn’t analyze whether she should let go.

She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.
She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.

No one was around when it happened. No applause or congratulations.

No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing.
Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.

There was no effort, no struggle.

No good or bad.
It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be.

A small smile crept over her face. A light breeze blew through her.

And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
Here’s to giving ourselves the gift of letting go…

"Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you." Ephesians 4:31-32