I thought I would actually do this one because as I look back over the last two years I blogging I realized how different the reason I started blogging is from why I blog now.
I began blogging shortly after I took the bar exam. I was 28, newly married, just bought our first house and about to start a new job. I thought I had something to contribute and wanted to share what it was like to be young, married, and a female associate in a law firm. I knew I was bound to have some funny stories and interesting insight. I also wanted to document what it was like to be a newlywed experiencing all that comes along with that. It was just my everyday life along with some humor in between about what it was like to basically start over at 28.
Whew... well 2 and 1/2 years later I am again starting over. I thought when I started blogging I had life all figured out. I was finally stable for once in my life and living the dream. I mean what else could I need or want at 28? I had great job, gorgeous house, loving husband, one sweet puppy girl... I mean come on I had my sh*t together....
I guess I appeared that way. I projected this confidant, haveitalltogether woman who had no fear, no regret, no guilt or shame. Clearly we have all seen that is the farthest thing from the truth. I too struggle with indecision, wanting to please, being wrong, body image... I wanted everyone to think I was perfect, that I had no secrets, no past, no regrets. I kept it all in.
Now, now I blog to share life with everyone to show that no matter what you have in life, we struggle. We all wrestle with where we are in life, what season we are in. We itch to move, change, make it better, but then rebuke when God calls us to make that change. We get comfortable, yet want more. I blog about my journey from the known to the unknown; my emotional roller coaster; my dating insecurities; and my journey with the Lord. I also blog about the mundane, the tough stuff, fashion, food, the goofy stuff I manage to do and sometimes serious discussion on issues and life. Its all a reflection of me. Someone said recently they felt they had to stop reading my blog because they felt the knew too much (might have been the biggest compliment ever).
This blog, this is me, this is my life my little corner of the interwebs that I love sharing with you. It has allowed me an outlet, its cathartic and I have met some amazing women and developed some wonderful friendships. So blog, blog the good, the bad, the ugly, but blog, and blog for you.
In other news, my lil peanut Sophie got her first bath this morning....
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