Sometimes

Sometimes...

• I cry at the gym
• get jealous of people who seem to " have it all"
• feel annoyed when people do not ask to borrow things
• I loathe getting up and going to work
• dance in the living room with my dogs for no reason and pretend they love it
• have entire conversations with my dogs, where they talk in different voices and say what I think they would
• I miss M
• wonder how I got here, where I'm going next and how I will get there
• pray to God in the car because its one of the few moments of quiet time
• color. Yup, crayons, coloring books and all
• wonder why I still care about what people do on Facebook
• plan my dream wedding in my head
• bake to relieve stress
• walk around Target for no other reason than to people watch

Sometimes/Always

I have done this one before, but it seemed like it had been awhile, so here's a quick sometimes/always of my life:

Sometimes.....

• I eat bagels for breakfast... with cream cheese
• I close my door, lay my head down and take a 20 minute power nap at lunch
• I am "that" dog mom
• I bake for no other reason than to bake
• I obsess over things like my cuticles
• I hate boys who can eat a whole Reese's and not gain an inch
• plan great blog posts and then end up posting something random at 6am
• try to save money and my house ends up eating it all (or this could be an always)

Always....

• I workout at 5am Mondays & Thursday
• allow myself 2 sodas a week
• pack my lunch and snacks and still get hungry
• wear my sports bra more than once a week (gross I know, but I have my favorites)
• come home and immediately put on pi's
• think "if I could only lose 5 pounds"
• go to sleep with no dogs on my bed and wake up snuggled up with two!
• thank God each morning for all the blessings in my life
• enjoy each and every comment from you all!

Never....

• do I eat fried food
• eat sushi (just don't like it)
• will you find me wearing something too tight, too low, or too short
• will i wear white pumps
• will i wear a bow, although I wish I could
• am I there first person to put away the dishes or do laundry
• do I say, hey, let's watch the game!
• will I choose wine over chocolate (but I will do them at the same time!)

See ya back tomorrow for Workout Wednesday!

Sometimes

 

Sometimes I have no desire to get out of bed. Sometimes I just want to sleep all day. Sometimes I get mad at the puppies for wanting to play when all I want to do is sleep. Sometimes I cry for no reason. Sometimes I get angry at people for no reason. Sometimes I sit in my office and look back at the clock and an hour has passed. Sometimes I regret. Sometimes I feel lost and lonely. Sometimes I wonder what if. Sometimes I want to run and hide. Sometimes I doubt. Sometimes I engage in self-sabotage. Sometimes I lose my faith. Sometimes I engage in self-loathing. Sometimes I want to take it all back.

Sometimes

Normally I would dishing about what's ok with me this week, but I would lying to myself if I decided that all was ok. Because sometimes life is just meh. Yeah I said it, meh. Not great, good, or even ok, its just meh.

Sometimes you just need to crawl in bed at 8pm with your pup (dressed as a ladybug) and watch TV.
Sometimes, no matter how you try to explain it to them, your spouse will not get your work stress.
Sometimes you just need to cry to get it out.

Sometimes you will feel all alone even when you're surrounded by people.
Sometimes eating two heaping scoops of chocolate ice cream are just what the doctor ordered.
Sometimes your hair and face will be a hot oily mess no matter what you do.
Sometimes when you are craving pumpkin cream cheese Einstein's will still be out of it.
Sometimes what you want most in the world seems to be the hardest thing to get.
Sometimes you just have to trust in God and follow the path he has set for you. (even when its hard)
Sometimes life is just meh.