One year ago today I closed one chapter of my life and began a new one. One where I was on my own again. One where I no longer had someone to come home to every night. One where I was in control of my own destiny. Yes, one year ago today I went from a Mrs. to a Ms.
I have been through so much in the last year. I moved, adopted a new dog, bought a house, took on more responsibility at work, found a church home, developed wonderful friendships, renewed old friendships, found myself and found love again.
And today, one year later, I am starting another chapter. Today I get to make two of my BOFF my IRL friends. I get to witness Jenn starting a new chapter in her life and develop a friendship that has blossomed over almost 2 years. I get to laugh, dance, hug, scream and see what friendship is about. I get to live my life.
People ask you how you are after it. Heck, I asked people when it would get better, when I would feel better, when my pain and sadness would end. But the thing is, M will always be a part of my life. He was most of my 20's. He shared in so much of my life. I can only describe it like experiencing the death of a loved one. But much like grieving the loss of life, gradually you begin to heal.
Its slow and I'm not sure when it began or ended, or whether it ever truly will, but I'm ok with it. See, I know I cannot control life. I am not the master, I am only a willing participant, but I promise to always enjoy the ride.
So, Happy Wedding Jenn and Happy Birthday P!nky!
What an amazing post, sweet girl. As someone who's been there as you went through all of this, I can say that I am so proud of you. You've been through a tough year (or more, actually! ) and yet, you've managed to come through it stronger. Enjoy your weekend in DC! Can't wait to hear all about it:)
ReplyDeleteSO proud of how strong of a woman you are. And Im SO happy that you get to come here today and see me and P!nky, and see how full circle your life has come in a year. You're on your journey to all of your happiness, and Im so lucky to be a part of it and have you as a part of mine :)
ReplyDeleteYOU ARE INCREDIBLE! One or the strongest women I know! I can't wait to meet my BOFF! And hug you and tell you how amazing you are! I LOVE YOU!!! fly safe!
ReplyDeleteGreat post and Im so glad you found your happy place again :)
ReplyDeleteWow... you are one strong lady. I can't even imagine! Keep doin' your thing, and with faith you will be rich!!!
ReplyDeleteHave a great time with your friends and dance the night away at the wedding! Safe travels sweet girl.
ReplyDeleteOne year!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!