On Getting Older

So, in case you missed it, I turned 30 in October. Ya know, 30 , when you are supposed to have life figured out: married, house, job, kid... it was that "adult" age you imagined when you were let's say 12.... Wow, too bad nobody told 12 year old me that getting older sucks! I mean, yeah there are def some good times along the way, and ya learn and you have money, but mo' money, mo' problems, its wayyyy true people!

I'm not saying 30 has been bad to me (unless you count the fertility issues, horrible acne that has plagued me and the uncontrollable urge to cry like every 5 minutes), but man 30 has been tough. I thought I would have it all and have it all done pat. What I have found is that I am still learning, still changing and growing. Each day I find there is something new, or I tap into some deep-seeded emotional scar that needs working through. At 30, I have finally given in and realized that I cannot do it all on my own, I need to ask for help, and no I am not perfect (nor do I need to be).

Getting older has shown me that I should've enjoyed my 20's more and worried less at age 16 about boys. Getting older has afforded me many thing, but most of all it has shown me that once you accept that you cannot change the past, you can move on into the future. No, I'm not saying forget the past--its shaped you, molded you into this unique person called you. The past has given you a moral compass, a guide so to speak, so don't forget it, just move on from it.

Getting older can be a blessing or curse, but its your choice! So, I'm embracing this new decade and taking it on full force, acne-covered skin and all! And this is my mantra!