Don't get me wrong, not sure I would go back to say er, 23, but not quite sure I am ready for the mammoth decisions and experiences of my 30's. Gone are the days when I could just pick up and move because the wind blew east or the grass not only looked greener, it was speckled with cute boys. I have so many other moving parts to my life that require so much thought even to say, go to the store! And don't get me started on the man front.
Doesn't get easier when you hit 30. I think in fact it becomes mire complicated as the sea of potential suitors narrows and breaking up or starting something new or changing anything in that department seems like deciding to go to war!
In fact, all decisions that need to be made now seem epic. They are life altering, pick the course you want to take difficult. Its not a matter of do you like me, check yes or no; or hmmm do I go out and skip class in the morning or go to class hungover; or to buy that new purse and eat Ramen for a week or not.... I mean, who lied and told me that your 30's is when you have it all figured out and you get to start living your life? Is anyone really 30 and flirty and thriving?
My image of of 30 was married, job, 2.5 kids and a dog (or 2). It wasn't one big decision after another that swallows you whole and/or watching everyone else live out your dream.
Perhaps my 40's will be the new 30's?
13 going on 30 is one of my most favoirte movies ever! But, it's such a farce. No one had it figured out by 30 and decisions do seem much more epic.
ReplyDeleteI do sometimes miss the nonchalance of my mid 20s. Where the thought of moving over seas, or to another state could happen with little ramifications. But now, things are much more serious it seems.
BUT, I do know, like I said last night, it will all work out. It might not be our first choice [or second or third], but we will get there.
You know I love and adore you, sweet friend. <3 and prayers!
I agree...life definitely isn't all figured out at 30, and you know what I'm realizing as I talk to my SIL's and other family and friends who are older? I'm not sure that it's EVER fully figured out. With each phase of life comes new challenges and changes that we have to figure out. I have faith that it will all work out the way it's supposed to, for all of us :) Sending you lots of love, as always :)
ReplyDeleteYes to all of this!
ReplyDelete"In fact, all decisions that need to be made now seem epic."
ReplyDeleteSo true.
Have you read Rules of Civility by Amor Towles? It's all about seemingly minor decisions made when you're young, and how they alter your life. It's a really great book for anyone who has had to start over.