I get in funks, we all do right? But this was Saturday night. We had gone to dinner, come home, were watching TV and it happened. I do not know if it was boredom, or that I felt like a giant pig from the Mexican food I wolfed down earlier. Or perhaps, it was the fact that the jeans I put on were tight. Yup, muffin top tight. I'd blame hormones, but I know its me. I eat way more than I should
I have been jealous of my friends who seem to have it all. Brunch dates, the cutest clothes, hair, etc... I admit its silly and my life is good. I mean I've got a loving husband, adorable furbaby, good job, home, food etc... But yet, a funk it is. Maybe I just am more feeling complacent. I mean nothing "new" has happened in about a year. After last year, perhaps its just my body's way of saying do something spontaneous.
So, I digressed. Saturday, funk, husband... It was pouring down rain and I decided I needed to look for office decor. So we headed out to HomeStore. I wanted bookends. Nada. I did find some baskets and hangers. (hubs looks at me and says ok, well its not bookends). So we get back home and I'm still in the funk. So I decide to find a movie. There I am sitting on my bed, watching some random Lifetime Movie and I decide, I am going to the gym. Yes, I at 9pm went to the 24 hour gym and ran. I good 30 minute all-out run. It felt good. I got home all hopped up on endorphins. I want to cry. No real reason, just want to cry.Hubs looks at me and I know he's thinking, this woman is crazy. Today was better, but the funk is still here. I know I know, its just a phase, it will go away, but seriously, I think I need something new. Normally I go with a new hairdo, but I have been growing my hair out so that won't work. Meanwhile, I'll just make random trips to the gym at 9pm and hope my husband embraces this.
Well, I just rambled, but hey its my blog right?
Don't feel bad girly! I swear I was in this exact place leading into my 30th last year and to top it off it was a few weeks before my 30th that Lauren got really sick again which made it a million times worse. Yet my 30th passed and a week later Lauren passed away.
ReplyDeleteBetween those two major things I came to a brilliant conclusion - it is totally healthy for girls to have periods of pure craziness including but not limited to: mini pity parties, meltdowns in ones closet,and even small doses of jealousy over the thinner, younger girls who seem to have it all but would really give almost anything for what we have - an awesome hubs and a good job! Without these moments of craziness, we would never have the moments of clarity that help push us to try something new or add a little spice into our everyday routines.
I have just had to learn that once you get a little older the number of really big moments in your life aren't a frequent because you have already experienced so many. The fun now is finding that joy and rush from the smaller, less celebrated moments in life. And if we were to be really honest, I think you are awesome and the best is yet to come for you my friend! :) Lots of love!!!
OH friend I 100% feel ya. Sometimes when life is just going on, things become mundane and there's no JOY! Not that you are happy and have blessings to count, and that's great you acknowledge them, but sometimes just being makes you bummed out.
ReplyDeleteI have friends who seem to have it all together. married with a kid or 2 always hanging out with friends and going on trips. Friends getting engaged and married and prego. Sometimes I look at my life and go, WOW, nothing really to show compared to everyone else.
I say, wallow in the funk, feel it, listen to it, cry it out, analyze it (PMS or food stuff) then kick it to the curb. Go get a massage or a mani pedi. Do a destination unknown quick weekend get away with the hubs.
Sending you well wishes! xoxo
Sometimes life is just like that. And, as girls, we just have to roll with the punches - er, hormones - sometimes. Over the past couple of months, I have been on a crazy hormone train, so there's nothing you could tell me at this point that I would think is weird (getting pregnant, losing a pregnancy, and then slowly getting back to normal is a pretty crazy ride, let me tell you!) Let yourself cry, scream it out, eat the junk and then pick yourself up, brush yourself on and move on. It's okay to go through times like these! We all do...Even the ones who look like they've never had a bad hair day in their lives;)
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