If I have said it once I have said it a fazillion (yes fazillion) times... I need to get my a$$ back on track. I used to be a self-confessed health nut. I was a lil obsessed with the gym and not putting anything bad for me (well other than cheat days) in my body. And, then I began to work full-time instead of going to school, I spent 2.5-3 hours in a car a day and sit.... all.day.long. I began to snack, then I was depressed, then I got divorced. I just gave up.
Then I began to have a life again and my diet went out the window. Sure I still worked out and tried to eat relatively healthy, but I allowed myself for cookies, ice cream, bread, etc... than I had in the last 7 years. I had muffins, butter with bread, hummus galore... and it took its toll. My clothes fit, but not as well and then well I became even more depressed. Let's just get it out there, I hate/d my body.
Am I fat, umm no. I know that 100%, but am I where I feel comfortable, gorgeous and healthy? no. That is something I can take care of. So... here's to getting back on track. I also have a huge reason to... I leave for the beach in 20 days! Yes, you heard me, in 20 days I will be laying on the beach in Mexico with drink in my hand, book in the other and a wonderful man by my side.
So, I stalked my fridge and panty with the essentials of my "I used to be a pageant girl and know how to diet" food and began last night. Broiled cod, broccoli and sugar-free cheesecake mousse for dessert. My goal, 5-8 pounds in 20 days. Yeah I know its kind of a huge goal, but.... I know I can do it. It means lots of runs, weights and pretty much just keeping my diet in check. I know its the next step in taking control of my life and getting back to being the best me I can be.
In other news here's what my weekend consisted of:
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| Yup, 100 degrees in the LBK |
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| My fav place to eat there |
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| Texas Tech School of Law |
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| She's 16? What? |
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| Duh, of course there was twirling... |
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| What my dogs were doing... Thank you Catie & Frank for watching them |
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| E & Me at the wedding #blessed |
Yes, this man endured 8.5 hours of driving, a wedding, Lubbock, and meeting a gazillion people who have known me since I was 3.
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| We missed you mom! |
A boy???? OK that dinner neeeeeds to happen!
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ReplyDeleteWOOHOO! Yay! A boy!
ReplyDeleteI'm with you on the eating and the body image thing. It stinks being tiny and relatively in good shape because people just DON'T get it when we aren't happy. Are we going to stop eating?!?!? NO! But, we are allowed to feel unpretty and unhealthy and yucky too.
YOU GOT THIS GIRL! I know you can do it! :)
WOWZA! You've been busy lately, haha, no pun intended. DO update! Glad to hear you happier.
ReplyDeleteUmmm, gonna need some updates asap missy! The boy is super cute! So jealous about your upcoming beach trip - oh, how I would love a vacation! Despite the face that I am on maternity leave right now, life with a newborn feels like anything but a vacation, lol!:) You look beautiful, but I totally understand not feeling your best, and support you in your quest to get healthy and feel good! Love you!
ReplyDeleteWoohoo!! Mexico and a new man is wonderful.
ReplyDeleteGod is good!
Listen chick, you are HOT. You are way too hard on yourself. But you can do this, I'll be your fitness buddy and we can keep each other on track.
ReplyDeleteI know just what you mean, and I've committed to becoming a health nut again as well. We could be accountability partners if you are interested? I am waiting to hear more updates!!
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