It was a cathartic cry, a total release of pent up emotion coming out of my soul. See, hubs has been travelling a lot. I can count on one hand how many days we have spent together in the last month. Normally I take it in a stride when he has to travel, but this was different. This week not only was he about to depart again, but he was working late two nights before his departure, and I will be leaving for trial before he even gets back. Yup, that means we will go over a week without seeing each other. You would think this would be find for a couple who did the long distance thing while I was in law school, and it is most of the time. This time, I think I just needed him.
Yes, I have my first trial next week. I know I'm not doing it on my own, but its still my first real one. Kinda scary kinda exciting all at once. And did I mention my big 3-0 is in 10 days? I think I just need him. Not so much to tell me I'm not old, or that I can do anything I set my mind to, but just to be there. Somehow having him in the next room or close enough for a hug makes things okay. (I sound like some sort of 1950's sitcom wife). He is my champion, supporter, and motivational speaker all in one.
So, back to the milk. While I cleaned up the milk I realized that its ok to need someone. We all need that person in our lives who gets us through anything. It's also ok to have those moments when no one is looking to lose it. It's ok to cry alone over spilled milk.
It's okay to need someone, everyone does. For the longest time I thought that made me 'needy' but it doesn't.
ReplyDeleteGOOOOOD LUCK with your trial, I know you will rock it out. And YAY for 30, so exciting!
xoxo
It is more than OK to cry alone in the kitchen when you spill your milk- its also OK to cry when 1) your baby cries and you can make him stop 2) you turn 30 and realize you still can't afford the expensive department store eye cream for wrinkles and have to make due with the drugstore kind and 3)your husband used up the last of the half and half in his morning coffee, because you hate skim milk.
ReplyDeletegood luck at trial, so exciting!
I know you will do so great with your trial! Just eat well, sleep, and prep. And sleep, and prep. And prep. And prep some more. Ha. I know what you mean - my husband travels every single week for work, and some are just harder than others. Sometimes you just need them - and don't those weeks always seem to fall when they're gone? Sigh.
ReplyDeleteIt's totally okay to cry over spilled milk - or whatever it may be - once in a while. And, you are SO right. We do all need someone once in a while. It's healthy to admit that. You have been handling a lot of pressure on your own for the last couple of weeks, and have been doing a great job of it. Your trial will go splendidly - don't worry about that. And, have no fear, you will make 30 look great!:)
ReplyDeleteMy husband and I were long distance for 2 years (6 hours away) while we were dating, and his job required tons of travel until about a month ago when he got a new job. I can completely sympathize with you - sometimes you DO just need your significant other nearby!
ReplyDeleteFirstly, good luck with the trial! My sister is a lawyer, and the trials are no joke!
ReplyDeleteSecondly, it's totally okay to need someone! I was always hesitant to admit that, but when The Husband and I got married, I realized it's definitely okay to give your all and admit you need that person, or any particular person..
Crying can definitely be cathartic, too. I'm totally with you on that!
I turned 30 in August and it hasn't been that bad. It's actually been a lot of fun. I feel more adult-like, believe it or not. Ha!
xo
Congrats! Your first trail, thats awesome, a major step forward. I really believe we can do all things through christ, just put your faith in him and go in there and knock em dead!
ReplyDeleteAs for the spilled milk, I am glad you were able to get it out of your system. CRYING IS HEALTHY! Thats a good start to releasing pinned up stress. Heck we have all cried over something right :-)
As a military spouse, I can totally relate to how it feels not to have your hubby around when you need him.
It just sucks when you can't be with the ones you love.
Lastly, I turned 30 last year, and I'm heading over to the big 3-1 in a few weeks (praise God) and I have to second SEL, 30's aren't bad AT ALL trust me.
Head over to my blog and read my post on what 30 was like for me: perfectlyimperfektme.blogspot.com It's titled "30 is better than 20"
Blessing Love! Can't wait to hear about the trail
Are you pregnant?? J/k. You have a lot on your plate, and I know how hard it is to be without your hubby! It's probably harder for you to be away from him for a little at a time than my situation. At this point, I'm pretty used to it. The blessing is that you don't have to get "used to it". Moral of the story: Don't feel bad about crying over spilled milk. We all do it!
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